Taking Shape

 

What would you call that shape?

Like a diamond, but softer and more rounded on the sides. Like a raindrop, but more pointed on the bottom. 

And how did someone come up with a raindrop shape? You can’t catch one on your finger or in a jar before it becomes a tiny puddle.

Eyes.

If you look at these shapes from a different direction, they become eyes. Squinty eyes. How an artist might sketch them on a page. The entire patio table is covered with squinty eyes.

My iced-coffee-filled mason jar (less full than empty), sits atop the squinty eyed, wrought iron patio table. It is early still, so even though it is expected to be another uncomfortably hot day, it is still shaded and pleasant enough on the patio.

My mason jar says otherwise.

There are beads of sweat forming on all sides before scaling down to the bottom of the glass, just barely holding on before slipping into the squinty eyed shapes in the table. Like "holding back the tears", the water clings there, and the eyes do not blink, but gravity pulls the water down - ahhh, I see. Of course! - into this teardrop or raindrop-like shape, until it falls onto the surface of the patio.

A tiny drop, magnifying the gray/brown colors of the patio stone beneath.

The Glass of Water/Five Minutes of Thoughts/A Teacher's Summer Brain/Modern Appliances Are Crap

 She sits at her computer. Out of the corner of her eye, she sees the unfinished project sprawled across the kitchen table. It’s too overwhelming, so she tries to avoid it. She thinks about getting on the elliptical, so she goes to the fridge to get some water. As she holds her glass against the automatic-water-fill button, she wonders why it is taking so long. The water is barely trickling out. Did it always take this long? As she waits for it to fill, she notices the dirty dishes in the sink, so she sets her mostly-water-filled glass down and starts to rinse them. As she begins to place them in the dishwasher she realizes the dishwasher is kind of full. Will there be enough room for dinner dishes or should she turn it on now? What should she do about dinner? She does not feel like going out to the store, so . . . leftovers or carryout? She remembers the clothes in the washing machine and decides to go put them in the dryer before exercising. Shit. Why are the clothes still so wet? She turns on the spin cycle. Nothing's happening. Shit. The spin cycle appears to be broken. She removes the clothes and puts them in the dryer, hoping the heavily weighted, sopping wet clothes won’t break the dryer too. She goes back to the computer and realizes she feels kind of hungry. And why does it smell like bacon? When was the last time they'd even had bacon? She sees a text from her sisters and engages back and forth for a few minutes. Then she tries to remember what it was that she was going to do five minutes ago. She remembers the elliptical. Then she wonders where she put that glass of water.

Shady Path

 On our morning walks in the summertime, I like to follow the shady path. The sun is low enough behind the trees and houses that it creates a harbor of dark lines and shapes. The dogs like to follow their curiosities, and mostly where their noses pick up a good scent, so their plan and my plan often conflict. I do try to compromise between their pleasures and my comfort. This is the longest walk of the day, and during the summer months there is time to linger. As the sun rises, the shadows will fade into the earth. By midmorning there will be no refuge, so the remaining walks of the day will be unprotected. And much shorter.   

 

 

 

After The Rain

 When I stepped outside this morning, the earth had been freshly showered, patiently waiting for the warm sun to embrace it. And I was greeted by the beautiful sounds of a nearby northern mockingbird. I know this, of course, because I used my bird app. He was perched atop his birdhouse, proudly showing off all of the songs he knows, and I was impressed - he knows a lot. I could also hear the symphony of cicadas coming from the not-too-distant tree line: f, then p, forte, then piano, loud, then soft. I know THIS, of course, because I was raised by a family of musicians. 

With my wellies on, the dogs and I walked out into the wet grass, and everything looked more alive, more vibrant. The dogs seemed to share my thoughts, as they stuck their noses into the air, breathing in all of the heightened scents. As we walked toward the back field, the tall, whimsical-looking flowers that sometimes pop up in the summertime looked even more yellow, making everything look . . . happy. And the beads of raindrops atop the leaves of grass magnified the shades of green, making everything look like harmony.

And there were more than the usual number of butterflies fluttering about today. Big ones and small ones, yellow ones and blue ones, and the occasional ones dressed in orange. I watched as they flew so quickly, so sporadically, so . . . NOT efficiently. How ironic that their movements are so much fun to watch, yet it is their way of evading predators. I watched as the occasional sparrow unsuccessfully attempted to catch one.  

I returned to the back door with the dogs and their wet paws; my wellies covered in wet grass. And we have a routine on damp mornings like these. Normally, Charlie (the older and smarter one) will shake off the walk, but it takes a bit of coaxing for Max. This morning, however, neither dog seemed to care about shaking off their wet paws, and, like the earth relies upon the sun, perfectly happy to leave the work of drying them off to me.

Dusk

 

Mike was in the back field with the dogs (their nightly 8pm-ish walk), and I decided to step outside to see how dusk would greet me. What had been a typically hot and muggy July day, had given way to a beautifully pleasant evening. I could still feel the humidity in the air and on my skin, but there was a coolness that could be felt, riding in on the slightest of breezes - SO slight that you really had to be paying attention to notice, and I was. And in that breeze, I could smell the grass, the clover, and someone's late, summer dinner cooking on a grill. 

As I watched the sun give way to the moon, I was thinking there might be a chance for a dramatic looking sunset. I could see some pale shades of pink, and perhaps some yellow and orange forming, like an artist just beginning to add paint to paper, no vision in mind yet of what it might become. And the sound of a farmer’s tractor could be heard in the adjacent field, using up every moment of sunlight to complete the day’s work. 

Like someone turning down the dimmer switch, the sky grew darker. The artist must have decided to give it a go another day. There was no dramatic sunset, but still lovely, nonetheless. And now the focus was on the moon.

Hanging to the left of me, there was a soft but noticeable aura around it, likely from air pollution, though I prefer to think not. And it looked, well, there is no poetic way of saying this, as if the moon was made out of gelatin, and someone had squeezed it slightly between a forefinger and a thumb, one side still looking rounded, the other slightly concave. 

As the sky grew darker still, I noticed the fireflies had come out to perform their show. I noticed them mostly in the taller grasses behind our house, where the birds and the bees and the butterflies also prefer to be. I watched them play for a while, then noticed the silence. The sound of the farmer’s tractor had gone away - his workday had ended. Evening had turned to night. And riding in on that slightest of breezes was the scent of a different type of grass in the air.

The Squirrel

 A squirrel just came to visit.

If you live in the suburbs, with trees all around, this may not seem like a big deal, but I live in a house that is surrounded by farmland. We have foxes and deer, and an abundance of groundhogs and rabbits. And though we don’t often see them, our terrier sniffs and scratches at the ground, his canine senses convinced there is a field mouse or a mole just beneath the surface. We can hear coyotes serenading at nighttime and have seen evidence of the occasional black bear. Frogs and toads often show up at our doorstep, and we have spotted a turtle here and there, both boxing and snapping. There are birds of all kinds - birds of prey, including vultures, hawks, eagles and owls. The smaller birds list goes on and on, including sparrows, bluebirds, swallows (including purple marlins), mockingbirds, and much, much more. There are also ducks and geese in the local pond. And of course, the neighboring chickens, pigs and cows.

But I rarely see a squirrel.

She must have come from around the corner. I heard a slight noise as she hopped onto the pebble-covered patio edge, just a few feet from where I was sitting. She sat up and looked at me, in that adorable way that squirrels do, and as I was thinking the same thing, she seemed to be saying, “Oh! I wasn’t expecting you!” 

She paused for a moment, deciding what to do, and as I said, “Hello!” she quickly turned and ran from whence she came. Likely, back to her home somewhere off in the distant tree line, or perhaps over to one of the neighbor’s gardens to scrounge up some treasure for lunch.

 

Cleanse

After a long summer drought, we were finally getting some rain. 

Unfortunately, the water we so desperately needed was brought on by hurricane/tropical storm Debby. Not to be confused with Debbie. They retired her years ago, as they do when a hurricane doesn’t behave herself. If I could do the research and find her story on the internet, I would, but after a night of strong winds and rain (as well as a tornado warning), I am left with no internet.

I slept on the couch most of the night. 

Not because of Debby, but because of another strong force of nature that often comes from the East – my husband’s snoring. When he left for work at barely the crack of dawn, I did a drunk-walk over to the bed. I didn’t wake up until 9:30, when the dogs were letting me know they were restless, with their loud shaking and scratching and pacing. Even though I’m on a teacher’s summer, it felt weird sleeping that late, but the sun did not peek through the rustic, woven shades to wake me, and there was no reason for an alarm.

As I stepped outside with the dogs, it looked like the grass had grown for the first time. Most of it had turned to brown, but today it looked as though someone had dipped a wet paintbrush across the landscape, turning most of the brown into green. And there was a pleasant breeze. And when we walked, instead of the sound we had become accustomed to (crunch, crunch, crunch), there was a squish, squash, squish, as my boots stuck to the ground. Which reminded me of the children’s book, Going on a Bear Hunt, and the wonderful words the author used to describe the different sounds. Squelch, squerch, squelch is my favorite, when describing the sounds of walking through the mud.  

And as I squish, squash, squished, I took in everything around me – the grasses, the trees, the houses in our little hamlet. And off in the distance, a small family of deer was grazing, reaping the benefits of the storm. And everything looked so . . . refreshed. 

It was the cleansing the earth had been waiting for.